It was Matthew’s (my son) birthday on 2nd May.  He turned 3.  Some of you probably know him by name already since I mention his name a lot on  Ma’ Cake Facebook page… Months before his birthday he kept on asking me when is his turn to blow a candle on a cake..  Or he sometimes asked me is that my birthday cake mummy or is this mine when I had a few cake orders.  I sometimes just smile at him and told him NO.. NO… and NO…   I don’t know what else to tell him.  I hate to see him very disappointed.  I can see it from his face that He wasn’t too happy when I told him NO…   Sometimes he would also go to my DH and ask for confirmation whether I was telling him the truth about the cake.  Or he would just asked My DH whether today is his birthday so he can get a cake…  Kids…  Aren’t they so pure and innocent??

Back to the party, I wasn’t going to throw him a birthday party this year due to my dad’s cancer.    Matthew and I were due to go back to Jakarta again to visit my dad again on March for a month to see how he went.  Unfortunately God has another plan for my dad.  My dad passed away on the 21st February.  Just 2 days before my birthday..  I still can’t forget that.  2 days… I wish He could’ve waited to wish me a Happy Birthday. One can only wish.  Since then I decided that we can throw him a birthday party since I have nowhere to go..  And I’m glad we did it.  I asked him what kind of cake he wants and the answer was very quick and persistent every time I asked.  RACING CAR mummy, he said.  He just loves all of the toys from the CARS movie especially Lighting Mc Queen.  He loves it that much that when I did the cars figurine for the cake and cupcake, he thought it was his toys and he start playing with them.. OMG I was like… You can’t do that..  You’ll crash them.. And he answer me very calmly said isn’t what a racing car supposed to do??  To crash at each other..  I just stop and cuddle him and I don’t know what to say anymore…

One thing for sure that he missed was having his grandfather to wish him Happy Birthday like I missed it too…  It was like a ritual ever since Matthew was born that my mum and dad would come on his birthday.   Ever since Matthew was born, He only has one grandfather since My father in law also already passed away.  This year is even sadder.  He didn’t have any…  If only there’s a way for them up there to communicate with us down here, I’m sure my dad would’ve said Happy Birthday to Matthew.  We missed you very much…

Below is just some photos of Matthew’s party and how he had a blast on that day…